Either you get bitter or you get better.
Sometimes I am both...workin' on better daily...with some minor setbacks!
Friday, March 21, 2008
Revelations
Wow. Just found out that an old flame of mine is expecting his first (planned) child.
Weird for me to hear only because we just emailed last week after yrs to say hello and to reminisce about old times...no mention. He is a vet and while reading his "business" blog today I very clearly read the news in the first paragraph.
I wish them well...I will no longer keep in touch with him now...even for a quick phone conversation or such as we do when too much time goes by. Wow.
I also am letting go of a lil crush that has been keeping me busy for the last few months...
He was engaged and called it off 8 months ago. We talked a lot about why and I know people waffle... but I read (today as well) on a work forum (that he told me about but has no clue that I read today), that he thinks that it may be the biggest mistake of his life and that he may call her... Regardless of other details...I instantly am shifting my focus...back to myself...where it clearly belongs.
Ugh. Just a little bit bummed. If I can recover after AK this will be cakewalk!!
Weird for me to hear only because we just emailed last week after yrs to say hello and to reminisce about old times...no mention. He is a vet and while reading his "business" blog today I very clearly read the news in the first paragraph.
I wish them well...I will no longer keep in touch with him now...even for a quick phone conversation or such as we do when too much time goes by. Wow.
I also am letting go of a lil crush that has been keeping me busy for the last few months...
He was engaged and called it off 8 months ago. We talked a lot about why and I know people waffle... but I read (today as well) on a work forum (that he told me about but has no clue that I read today), that he thinks that it may be the biggest mistake of his life and that he may call her... Regardless of other details...I instantly am shifting my focus...back to myself...where it clearly belongs.
Ugh. Just a little bit bummed. If I can recover after AK this will be cakewalk!!
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
Monday, March 17, 2008
Happy St. Patrick's Day
Such an odd "holiday" really. Not that I am against it or anything...but really it is just a day for everyone to dress really stupid and get crazy smashed by breakfast and continue on like rockstars until the bars close at night.
I live very close to some really fantastic Irish pubs. I went for a couple of hours just to be social. It was kinda fun, but the too drunk people creep me out and I have a low tolerance for stupidity in bars so that is about all I could handle.
Hope your "holiday" was fun...
This is my musical obsession today.
I live very close to some really fantastic Irish pubs. I went for a couple of hours just to be social. It was kinda fun, but the too drunk people creep me out and I have a low tolerance for stupidity in bars so that is about all I could handle.
Hope your "holiday" was fun...
This is my musical obsession today.
Saturday, March 15, 2008
Hard
Hmmm. I feel like life is hard...and ya know what...it is.
I thought when I was this age it would be easy...or at least easier.
I think I need sleep.
So I am going to bed. Tomorrow is another chance at peace.
'Nite.
I thought when I was this age it would be easy...or at least easier.
I think I need sleep.
So I am going to bed. Tomorrow is another chance at peace.
'Nite.
Thursday, March 06, 2008
Fat Pledge
Okay friends. I am posting this as a way to stay accountable.
I pledge to lose this excess weight that I put on during my relationship with AK.
That phase of my life is over, so it is TIME to get back to who I am...and that is someone
that cares about her body and health and enjoys working out and looking good!!
SO, by my birthday in April, I pledge 15lbs will be shed.
That is conservative in my opinion because if I actually TRY, I lose weight easily.
I will need to eat WELL and Exercise on a regular basis to accomplish this.
I also have decided as incentive, to post a before and after once I get to my goal weight.
I also am hoping to run a half marathon in the spring. I have done so before and I am really looking forward to it!!
Anyone else on a serious weight loss journey??
I pledge to lose this excess weight that I put on during my relationship with AK.
That phase of my life is over, so it is TIME to get back to who I am...and that is someone
that cares about her body and health and enjoys working out and looking good!!
SO, by my birthday in April, I pledge 15lbs will be shed.
That is conservative in my opinion because if I actually TRY, I lose weight easily.
I will need to eat WELL and Exercise on a regular basis to accomplish this.
I also have decided as incentive, to post a before and after once I get to my goal weight.
I also am hoping to run a half marathon in the spring. I have done so before and I am really looking forward to it!!
Anyone else on a serious weight loss journey??
Monday, February 25, 2008
Lost
How do I find myself again in the midst of Full time school, work, a company and getting this house up to living standards?? I guess I wait until the house is done?? I have zero time to do anything else...let alone workout and keep a social life...
Hmmmmm.
Lesson learned about not taking the time you have for granted when you have it!!!
Hmmmmm.
Lesson learned about not taking the time you have for granted when you have it!!!
Friday, February 22, 2008
Boring Central
I am boring myself stiff! All I do is school until 12...company business then bartend at 4 or work on the house...sometimes I eat and shower inbetween. Lord that is boring.
I need a couple of nights off...
This weekend is a power weekend though...getting as much done as possible on the house with my parents and a painter is coming over tomorrow (thank you God)!!
What are you guys doing this weekend??
Feel like a song?? I am feelin' this one today...
I need a couple of nights off...
This weekend is a power weekend though...getting as much done as possible on the house with my parents and a painter is coming over tomorrow (thank you God)!!
What are you guys doing this weekend??
Feel like a song?? I am feelin' this one today...
Thursday, February 21, 2008
Paint
How freaking hard could it be to mix a can of paint?? I need one more can for the second coat to my spare bedroom... I have been to Lowe's twice now and STILL do not have the right color. I even took in the empty (correct color) can last time...they have those damn computers that match the color for you...wth???
Needless to say, I have to go back tomorrow yet again...JUST what I want to do...
It is hard to tell when you are at the store looking at a tiny dot they put on the top of the can...next time I am making them open up the thing in front of me...
Then pouring it on their head if they get it wrong!!
Needless to say, I have to go back tomorrow yet again...JUST what I want to do...
It is hard to tell when you are at the store looking at a tiny dot they put on the top of the can...next time I am making them open up the thing in front of me...
Then pouring it on their head if they get it wrong!!
Monday, February 18, 2008
House headaches
I have school full time, I have a company...(that I am supposed to be running), I bartend two nights a week and now I have this freaking house...
UGH.
I am so super depressed the last two days. I just cannot seem to get anything in a comfortable place...schoolwork is so time consuming...I am so behind...
The company is a joke...I have five buildings I need to get clean tonight and I fired the girl in charge of them...that means I need to clean five buildings by daybreak...myself...UGH.
A contractor just left my new house and it is more a wreck (in some ways) than when he arrived...he tore down and repaired a portion of the living room ceiling and the rest of the room is COVERED in dust now...I cleared out the spare room so he could put on the second coat of paint while here...so now MY bedroom is not livable...I cannot GET to my bed...only to hear him say that he cannot come back until Wed or Thurs. to paint the spare room.
UGH.
Homeownership is SOOOOO not fun right now.
UGH.
I am so super depressed the last two days. I just cannot seem to get anything in a comfortable place...schoolwork is so time consuming...I am so behind...
The company is a joke...I have five buildings I need to get clean tonight and I fired the girl in charge of them...that means I need to clean five buildings by daybreak...myself...UGH.
A contractor just left my new house and it is more a wreck (in some ways) than when he arrived...he tore down and repaired a portion of the living room ceiling and the rest of the room is COVERED in dust now...I cleared out the spare room so he could put on the second coat of paint while here...so now MY bedroom is not livable...I cannot GET to my bed...only to hear him say that he cannot come back until Wed or Thurs. to paint the spare room.
UGH.
Homeownership is SOOOOO not fun right now.
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