Attitude adjustment

I have been taking a step back to think about your comments and thoughts.
You are right. I am a nice girl. I have a lot going for me. I treat people very well.
There is no reason for me to feel so unattractive and lonely all the time.
Often I think that my downfall has been being such a "good girl"...In my heart
I know it is the right thing and I would not be happy unless I was this way!!

SO...
I have decided to spend Thanksgiving relaxing and reading and I am going
to hop online to find a soup kitchen that needs help serving food or washing dishes!
That will make me see how blessed I am...in an up close and personal way!!

I also withdrew from school. I know that a big part of me being so flustered has
been that from morning until night I have been at school or work, sometimes
even skipping a meal or shower just to get a lil sleep!! I am most relieved.
I am going to make time for myself every day! Working out sounds like bliss...
and I cannot wait!!

I will also have a little time to enjoy my house!
I could go on and on with all the stuff I plan on doing!!
It is amazing how much you appreciate what is taken away from you!!

I am also okay with being single now. I am sure I will have rough days, but
honestly I am excited to not be thinking about anyone but me!!!
I did hang out with someone a couple of times and it is clearly not going to
work out (I will post about that at a later date...)! I could be bummed because
I really like him actually. Can you believe that?? I did not think it was possible!

AK and I are in a place now where we are friends again and it is okay.
I do not want to meet girls and vice versa for him, but for some reason
I am not okay with 100% gone and this is helping...for now!!
He has been a lil jealous, but only undertones and I laugh in his face!!

K, off to conquer my day!!
Hope you are doing the same!!