Stand strong against adversity

That is number four from a book that I like a great deal. It lists seven things to help you "live your best life now". I typed them out and printed them fairly largely and they are hanging in my home office. I read them on a regular basis.

Right now I am focusing on number 4. I am trying to stand strong.

When does life get easy?? When do I just find some peace??
I guess when I make the choices that lead me to that.

I deserve to be happy. I deserve a husband...kids, a house...a life WITH someone
that enjoys life with me...ME, just the way I am. I am going to get it guys. I am.
I had to give up the dream of my life with AK.
I am my own destiny and I have to make choices that will help me achieve what I want.

In the meantime, I am once again injured. I am healing and every day I am trying to stand strong. That is why I may or may not blog a whole lot right now. I want to make sure I am not wallowing in my own self pity.

I can do this right guys?? ALL of you have come through some major setbacks.
I can too right?? Please help me because I have this void in me right now.
I waffle between total void and on the verge of tears.
I am banking on time helping me out as well.
All of this will get easier with time...right????

The bitter taste of losing everything that I held so dear.

The long awaited answer to a long and painful fight.
Truth be told I've tried my best, but somewhere along the way I got caught up in all there was to offer and the cost was so much more than I could bare.
Though I've tried... I've fallen.
I have sunk so low.
I messed up.
Better I should know...
so don't you come round here and tell me I told you so.

Fallen