Well, this little space will be a place for me to go to laugh, cry, vent, scream, and hopefully heal. I already have a therapist...$200 an hour once a week is not nearly enough to help me mend as quickly as I would like. I cannot bare the thought of calling up one of my friends again to listen to well meaning advice when really I know they just want me to GET OVER IT. Running and working out help as well, but what about the times when I am here with myself, alone staring at my life (and it staring back at me).
I should clue you in...I have spent the last eight years of my life with the same man. It has been all things amazing and all things HELL. We broke up this spring, and now at 31, this is the journey of my new life. I am still in the acceptance phase. Silly I know, but after reading for awhile it will become clear why this rollercoaster is so.
Today I just want to get this started...I may find myself here 900 times a day...maybe only once, I just know I need an outlet. One I can turn to any time of day or night, one that I will not feel guilty about and one that will help free me and to help me think more clearly, so I can stop wasting my life. I most likely will not post real pictures...unless they are faceless...so here is a great little self portrait from MEEZ.com. It is a great site to play around with when you have some down time. I will also try to add a quote or funny joke or saying to each post...today's is:
“Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.” ~Dr. Seuss...he was such a smart man!!
